When is old enough?

I can only think of one time in my life when God has called me to do something that felt wrong in every possible way. Moving down to Charlotte, with 200.00 in my bank account, in a city where I knew no one and away from the comfort of family for a JOB is a calling that freaked me to the core. The only thing that brought me to Charlotte was the feeling of the call, God's call on my life to be here.

I've been in a comfort zone for the past few years consumed with family challenges, getting married, and changing churches. These things have been a roller coaster but nothing has felt quite like a sacrifice and calling....they have all been life situations.

In the past year John and I have felt the tug of the Lord calling us to step from our comfort zone and give ourselves completely to his will. He's calling us to something greater than we can handle on our own and calling us to serve his kingdom doing something we could be no further than experienced in. We have known from the moment we met that we adopt. It's something that has been on my heart since I was little asking my parents to adopt for a Christmas present to me.

Adoption is not in the cards for us....yet, foster care though, is. I never in a million years thought I would venture into "parenting" without being a parent. I know it's nothing I can do without the Lords guidance and strength, I also know that if it's a matter of being obedient to his calling on our lives, we're in.

We're not really sure where this adventure will take us. Whether its short term or life long, but we are trying to be open. John is confident and calm about the whole process, I on the other hand feel my flesh selfishly pulling from what I know I'm supposed to do. Fear is beginning to set in. Insecurity is beginning to consume. The thought of "my" time and comforts vanishing is creating apprehension.

As the process begins for licensing, we pray we are doing God's will. We pray the Lord will quickly close this door if it is not what God wants for us. We pray for obedience. We pray for wisdom. We pray for a clue of how to make this work and further his kingdom through serving kids who just haven't been given a chance.

Pray, Pray, Pray.