I hate Church

I hate church...when it convicts the area I know I'm lacking in. I hate when God gets to me when I really don't want to hear it, once I hear his voice, I have to be obedient. This mornings message was from 1 John chapter 2. 15 Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. 16 For all that is in the world— the desires of the flesh and the desires of the eyes and pride of life[c]—is not from the Father but is from the world. 17 And the world is passing away along with its desires, but whoever does the will of God abides forever. This text always hurts to hear. This text calls out believers to put all we have in our lives towards God, it states that those of us who look like the world, talk like the world, and act like the world-are the world. It challenges us as believers to evaluate if we care more for our God, or more for this world. Our pastor highlighted that when we strive for fame in our jobs, we seek approval and praise from man, and capitalize on material goods--we are the world. To be perfectly exposed--my heart is dark in this area. I have struggled so much recently with wanting to further my education for teaching. It's strange because the only reason I feel a need to, is so that I feel secure in my ability (according to other people). WHY?? My kids perform awesome at school, I love my job, I know that God has blessed me in the job I'm in. The pressure of the world to keep getting stamped pieces of papers can get to me. Todays sermon was the perfect message for my dirty, world loving heart. I don't need the worlds approval to determine if I'm a good teacher. I know God has blessed me with the success I have had because of my heart, not my papers. Here's to being satisfied in him, not the worlds perception of satisfaction!